Emotional...

Today has been an emotional day for me. Not a bad day, just emotional and very unexpected. I got up early and was in line to vote by 7am. Just after 7, I looked back at the long line and saw a young man that looked so much like my younger brother, Paul, I had to keep staring at him (poor guy). (My brother Paul, passed away on April 20th, 2008). I could not believe my eyes. I kept going over his features, same color hair, same complexion, same color eyes, same mouth, same body structure, it was bizarre. After a few minutes of looking at him at different angles, I found some things that were not similar, his nose, his cheek bones, he was a bit thinner, but up until that point, I was almost wondering if Paul had a twin. But after some time, my brain registered the differences and I came back to reality and logical thinking. However, it definitely created an emotional experience for me. Plus, I had a dream last night that my little Millie (my dog) was hit and killed by a car and in the same dream my parents (who have been divorced since I was 14) were camping together and arguing over something. All of it was very strange. So weird how the mind works sometimes. I have seen movies before where a mom will have lost a little child and then she sees a child that looks similar and she freaks out and does something crazy. I get it, not that I would ever do anything crazy, but the mind can definitely convince you of untrue things.

With that said... I praise God for the truth of HIS Word. That I can go to it and sift the things that happen in this world through what HE tells me is true. I can ask God to show me HIS truth and to keep reality in check for me. I am reminded, that it is a process sometimes. Just like I needed a few minutes and several glances to convince myself that Paul was definitely gone and that this young man was not Paul and not a twin, sometimes it will take several times of meditation or reading a Bible verse to understand what God is telling me. Also, that changing of character is a process and I will not change overnight. In Bible Study this morning, we spoke about how everything happens in God’s timing and HIS timing is not our own. AMEN to that!

The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace.

Romans 8:6